Saturday, June 29, 2013

What if...?

Today, as I was saying my goodbyes to people in the present agency for it was my last working day there, the thought of ‘what if’ dawned on me. As it is today being the last day, I was too over-whelmed with emotions and then this thought. All through my way back home, this played on in my mind. 

What if I had not veered from what I was doing? What if I had stayed put in CA and never questioned the uneasiness that was there all along in my heart? What if I had just been okay and made it my comfort zone somehow? What if I was a fickle heart and averse to taking risks? What if I had listened to the world and thought I was too dumb to be changing professions? What if I had never listened to my heart?

These are some of the things I could instantly think of:

·      I would never have seen the best year of my life yet. 2007. I quit CA, joined CAT coaching and a gym. Lost about 15 kilos, didn’t make it to CAT, yes. But, this year gave me confidence and memories that I still go back to and get motivated from. There has been no year like that so far

·      I would never have seen the worst year of my life yet. 2008. I was clueless on career path, had met some really messy people, lost a very dear uncle, some health issues. This year made me what I am today. Now, given any crappy situation, I think about that period and instantly feel better. Because that really was worse and if I could survive those, I am much better now. Whatever the situation be

·       I would never have thought of studying again. Hence I would never have joined the PG course and would never have met some really good people in college and in internship

·       I would never have stumbled upon advertising. And that would have been really sad. Because, this profession gave me a home, friends and brought out the crazy side of me. I just thank my stars for this reason. I would never have met some of the people who are now really close friends. Infact, all my close friends are from advertising and just a handful from my CA days. It seems I had to meet them through this route and it was all planned

·       I would have been older then. Not wiser. Which I am now

·       I would have been married by now, decent job and all that. Wouldn’t have been a bad situation at all considering I want it now as well. My choices, attitude and thinking, though, have gone sea change and the confident me that looks at me in the mirror is not the same reflection I ever have seen before. I know a decision I take now will make much more sense to me and my family than it would have then, a few years back

·       Most importantly, I would not have had experiences. Good, bad, ugly. Whatever. But looking back, I would not trade them for anything. They have made me stronger and awesome (yes, awesome is how I always describe myself!)

This journey from 2007 till date has been a continuous roller-coaster ride. One that has been thrilling and chilling at the same time. Not that life would not have been nice then but it is very exciting now and I am much more happy and content than I was then. So!

And, this journey, my dearies, makes the destination immaterial. I do not know where I want to be but I for sure know that I would not have embarked on this if I had not gotten down at the platform to take a break and seen the beauty outside! 

23 comments:

  1. Of course, our experiences make us who we become. Our choices, may perhaps, not seem right at the moment or maybe we are doubtful but in retrospect, we realize, everything was planned for us such.

    Great feeling, ain't it?

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    1. Yes looking back I realise it was all so meticulously planned! It makes me content. :-)

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  2. My only motto in life is - Whatever decision you take in life is the right decision.
    A great introspective post.

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    1. Thank you Rickie. For me, I have never regretted my decisions but yes, sometimes I do go back and just question myself. And come back more convinced.

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  3. And, this journey, my dearies, makes the destination immaterial. I do not know where I want to be but I for sure know that I would not have embarked on this if I had not gotten down at the platform to take a break and seen the beauty outside!

    This resonates with me and how! Hey, hello soul sistah!

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  4. As long as you are soaking in the glory of the moments, and enjoying every minute of your life you should be good. And awesome you are!! :)

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    1. Ultimately whatever we do, we must be happy. That I am!

      Thank you so much!

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  5. What a lovely feeling to look back and know that you have followed your heart. I love the affirmative tone of your post, Naina. And yes, it's always the journey that counts - continue to have a beautiful one, following your dear heart! ♥

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    1. Thank you so much Corinne and coming from you, means so much to me. Thank you.

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  6. That's a fab journey. Glad that you followed your heart and made it your decision. All the best for the new assignment and new journey! :)

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  7. What if's always play an important part in our lives.
    What if I hadn't gone gone dancing that November night? I wouldn't have met my future husband and had 3 children and now our grandchildren. Ans so it goes on. Each day everything we do play a big part in our live.
    Good luck with the next challenge in your life.
    Enjoy your week-end.
    Yvonne.

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    1. Really? Wow Yvonne! That's an amazing love story! You have to tell more about it!

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  8. Introspection is always good, Naina. It makes you confide in you, regardless of the decisions that you have made. You learn from what you have done, more than what others have done.

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    1. Yeah Diwakar. Your own experiences teach you like no other and introspecting time to time keeps you sane and grounded. I guess!

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  9. All the best for ur future endeavors
    This is a post which boosts any ones confidence
    . Ya sometimes I feel I am better now than 2007
    More matured and more equipped to face the worse
    Good kuch for new job . U will rock it there too
    Tc
    Love
    Afshan

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    1. :-)

      Thanks and love to you too Afshan.

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  10. Oh how lovely! Such a heartfelt post and it drew your story in such a wonderful way. I began to look back at my own decisions. Wonderful Naina and I hope you always make the best of your life. Cheers!

    Richa

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    1. That's the plan Richa!

      Many thanks for dropping by and am happy I did not disappoint you on your first visit here. :)

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  11. It looks like you have had a wonderful journey in self-discovery! So glad for you; there are so many people who know little about themselves and hence can never be happy!

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  12. Hopped over from http://peddlerofdreams.wordpress.com review on Tuesday Thingy. The review was short and sweet and got me to actually hop over.

    This piece of yours is wonderful! I totally agree with how we sometimes grow old without growing up. Had written about it sometime back too. Incidentally, like you gave up on CA, I gave up on advertising :P

    I just wrote http://squarefairpower.wordpress.com/2013/12/27/goodbye-2013-a-lookback-at-the-wonderful-year-it-was/ Different experiences, different people really do make you look at life differently.

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